I didn't realize how long it's been since I've been blogging. A lot of things have been happening, so let's get started...
As you know, I officially answered my calling (for the 2nd time, lol) to minister. Since September 2009, I've preached two sermons and I've taken Lay Speaking classes, which is a requisite in the United Methodist Church when getting started. I'm now certified to preach at my own church, although I've preached twice already. I'll be preaching again in October. Anyway, after finishing the classes I met with our district superintendent. We had a brief chat about discerning what my main ministry would be. Of course, it would be praise & worship. After our conversation, I became a candidate for ministry. That means that I will be training for a few years before I am given the title Reverend of Minister. Either way, I'm excited about the journey God has in store for me.
I've been working on other people's projects in the studio for a long time. After a conversation with my friend while in Kansas City, I decided it was time to work on my own project. I started writing music, but I am looking for other contributors. If you know someone who can write really well, let me know. :-)
I did a lot of hanging out and relaxing during the summer. Gotta say; this was one of the best summers I've had in a long time. I got reacquainted with friends, found new friends, and developed a deeper relationship with a special friend. It's crazy though, because I've loved this person for years. At the same time, there have always been females chasing this guy so I stayed to myself and chilled in the shadows while keeping our friendship intact. Feelings have been revealed, and I think now I'm afraid. Of what, you may be asking? I'm afraid of getting hurt again. Especially by him. It's crazy how you can have truly deep feelings for someone for a long time, then when revealed you want to go back into the shadows and stay there; like you've revealed an intimate secret, ya know?
Who knows what the future may bring with this beautiful monster of a relationship. All I know is this: I've been in a total of 2 failed relationships. The first guy cheated on me with two different women. The other (who I dumped last year) was so worried that I would cheat on him with anyone that walked past me due to his past hurt. I'm tired of hurting, and I'm also tired of running. It's time for me to be happy. This person not only makes me happy, but he makes me want to be better; do better. I'm ready to love again, but more importantly I'm ready to be loved; loved unconditionally. I deserve it dangonit!!!
Don't worry; I'll let you know what happens as the saga continues...
Disclaimer: all names have been removed to protect the guilty. :-)
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